Happy Ear Day!

Today one of the other Mom's from Cassidy's preschool was over to help with the quilt. We are making good progress....I think. Sort of hard to tell as we have to get it done by Friday night so it can go on the auction block on Saturday. Yikes! So we locked ourselves in the office and slaved away while Jeremy took care of the girls. We took a break for lunch and Cassidy was very excited to have company. She eagerly said, "Daddy I have something to say to you" When our guest asked, "What is it, Cassidy?" Cassidy said, "No, not you, to Daddy. Daddy, Happy Ear Day." She then let me know she had something to say to me, another "Happy Ear Day". Finally our guest was graced with Cassidy's well wishes for a "Happy Ear Day". So to all of you, Happy Ear Day from ours!

Back On-line

Jeremy took my li'l iBook to his new job with the Mac Business Unit at Microsoft and fixed it. Hooray! Only one problem. Jeremy has done this with every reinstall he's ever done, he forgets to transfer my email. So I have no address book, no previous emails, nothing but a few new messages. So I apologize for my diapperance from the electronic world. I still have quite a few on my yahoo account, but it will take me awhile to get back into the swing of things. Sorry all. But at least I'm blogging again! Woohoo!

What does Oprah know?

I remember watching Oprah B.K. (before kids) and so many epsiodes were about women and mothers and at the end of the show, Oprah would sum up so nicely, "Take time for yourself". This week has been pure torture for me. I have had terrible PMS, that set off a bout of depression, Jeremy started his new job so he has been gone more than I'm used too, and I have this quilt for Cassidy's preschool to finish. You know, by June 4th and I had NONE of it done as of Saturday morning. Which started awful as Jeremy was tired and felt he deserved to sleep in, even though I was the one ready for the loony bin on Friday while he was at the Star Wars movie with his team until 6:30. It's moments like these I think of Oprah's advice. When I can't even take the trash out uninterrupted and have an urgent project to finish I'm supposed to 'take time' for myself. What does Oprah know? She's not even married, let alone kids. I mean, she probably follows her own advice, but it's a whole lot easier without kids!

And the runner up is....

We just had a rocking vacation last week, and we are still recovering and trying to get rested. Seeing my friends always does something to me though. Makes me long for the old days before kids. When I could stay out late, sleep in late or do whatever I wanted on a vacation. Someone always says, "You're such a good Mom" which I take as a consolation prize. It's not that anyone thinks I'm less of a person b/c I'm doing the SAHM (stay-at-home-mom) thing, it's that I take it that way. I know it stems from my dissatisfaction. If someone were to say, "You're such a good chemist" while I was still working, I would have taken pride. The problem is I didn't choose to be a SAHM for my career. My problem is I keep finding reasons why I should wait until I get back into the work force, and find myself miserable in the mean time. Ok, I'm not miserable, I'm just not living every moment with my girls as if it was a special gift. Maybe it's me, but I don't find sopping up pee from the carpet b/c my 3yo decided not to go to the toilet a special gift that I should treasure always. In fact, I hope to forget that moment soon, so I don't bring it up at dinner when she's 17.

1 week(s) 12 hours and 7 minutes

Otherwise known as how long our vacation was according to the parking machine at SeaTac. Jeremy and I had to agree that it was our best vacation ever with the girls. Not that we didn't have some challenges, which mostly started before we left. In other words, don't put an offer on a house, put your house on the market and have your husbands last day at his current work the day before you leave!! We were ready to enjoy the vacation, and would have if the fax machine would have been working and the girls slept for the first 2 days. But amazingly, they finally slept and we finally sold our house. Woohoo! Let the real vacation begin. We took it easy in Tahoe, as it snowed on us and then turned sunny and warm. Had photos done of the family at the beach. Then went out on the boat with Grandpa. Cassidy drove it, and we had a great bumpy cold time. Jeremy had his attmept at the World Series of Poker Circuit Event (a $200 entry) and was taken out by a pro. We watched a lot of the pros play (almost got run over by Doyle Bronson in his Rascal Scooter)and the 2 of us went to watch the final table play. Then we headed down to Sacramento for some friend time. Hung with Jim and Jill, Robyn and Jen, Ashley and Kevin, as well as my Grandpa (girls great Grandpa). Every night we went to bed exhausted and woke up a little before we were ready. We packed as much fun as possible in. We were so happy to be home last night, so imagine our horror when we find ourselves locked out of our house. No problem, just call our baby sitter from down the street, who is on a ferry boat!! ACK!! Call real estate agent, leave message. No, I'm fine. Jeremy's trying to pick the lock, I'm crossing my legs cause I have to pee, and girls are fussing because they are still in car. Yeah! It was a GREAT trip! Amazing how complete exhaustion and having to pee can taint your view of a trip. Meet sitter at McD's and get girls to bed an hour later than we planned, but thankful we got in at all. After a good night's sleep in our own house, it really was a great trip and we had a blast.

Mothers and .... More (on being Julia Roberts)

Julia Roberts graced the cover of People magazine's 50 most beautiful cover for a 3rd time. According to the mag, since becoming a mother Julia has become more beautiful. So nice to see having twins is helping out someone's career. It made me think about how society views motherhood though. For example, Julia is seen as an actress, an Oscar winner, a beautiful woman AND a mother. It is just another title to add to her long list. Yet for many women, when they achieve the title of 'mother' they lose all their previous titles. Somehow now that you are a mother means that it has more priority than any of your other titles. See my post on Mothers&More site about loving your husband more than your kids. Why does "Mother" take precedent over "wife", "employee", "woman", "research scientist", "sex goddess" or any other title? Why do we do it to ourselves and to others? I know I need to focus on the 'More' when I meet fellow Moms and hopefully we all will.